Life sometimes plays tricks on us, you begin to question your existence, I won’t lie I’ve done it A LOT, I’ve cried, thought the universe was against me, I’ve resented my friends for not supporting me, I’ve gotten jealous of other people’s success story and I even went as far as comparing myself to others.
It’s true what they say “Comparison is a joy killer”
While I was sulking, I didn’t realize I was hurting myself more, I was stagnant and I wasn’t making progress in my life, yes I was working hard but I wasn’t happy while working, I still felt I wasn’t good enough or doing anything well at all, I questioned a lot of things, friendships and all.
I was thinking oh my youngest friend is going for her masters and I am not even done with my 1st degree, I started thinking and worrying again, crying and asking God why, lol very silly!
I had to sit out away from home, away in a very expensive fancy restaurant, ordered a glass of red wine(I do not take alcohol, I was even surprised at my ORDER), I sat in the darkest corner and thought about my life, my progress and growth, while I was busy comparing myself and saying “God when” I failed to realize that I’ve grown so much, i wasn’t where I use to be and that moment I snapped out of my annoying state and I stood up, went out for some fresh air, in all honesty I couldn’t believe I had such thoughts in me, I’m one to never get pressured by anything or anyone.
I went back in to place my food order, had some of the food and shortly I begin to think about how far I’ve come and how well I’ve GROWN!
I decided to start showing more gratitude than complaining and comparing myself to people! And if I’m being honest, things have changed dramatically and for that I am grateful.
.I’ve forgiven alot of mistakes and people, cause forgiveness is the first step to healing,I’m so happy I could comfortably share this blog post.
I am grateful for life, for friends and family.
Enjoy life one day at a time, you can’t change your life in a day but you can one day at a time.
It’s okay to feel this things but never let them have the best of you.